March 29, 2022

Time after time, I receive yet another recommendation to start using a journal, that journaling will “help me.” Well, I decided to give it a try, with one plot twist. My journal will be public and hopefully it will not just help me but others who feel alone. I honestly don’t even know where to begin. I guess I can start with today. I find myself watching hours upon hours of netflix, hulu, amazon prime, youtube… you name it I use it. I have probably watched every single romantic comedy out there, unable to ever find a new one to watch. Today however, I cancelled my netflix and hulu account, in hopes to get my life back on track. It came to a point where I wasn’t even watching whatever I had playing but simply played it because it was my safety net. It was a safety net that gave me comfort but in that comfort I was alone. How can something that felt so comforting also make me feel so alone at the same time? I do believe that a little “me” time is necessary for everyone but I don’t want my “me” time to result in me ruining my friendships, neglecting school or negatively impacting my health. I don’t want to isolate myself anymore. I don’t want to watch hours upon hours of meaningless romantic comedies or replay the TV series I finished years ago for the third time. I want to make a change and I am hoping that I can make this change through blogging.